Well today the trees are coated in hoar frost, nature's bling for the fashionable tree, ha ha. I have always loved how stunning hoar frost is, especially when the sun is shining and it lights the frosts icy luminescense. Well yesterday was uneventful but productive. Tidied up the house and I think I may have done 10 loads of laundry. I am just about done, have 3 or 4 left, but it's bedding, sometimes a blanket is a load on it's own. Today was more laundry and chatting on the computer, couldn't believe my day disappeared so fast. I guess that happens sometimes. Hoping some more Ebay will come in the mail tomorrow, today was a stat holiday, so no mail :( I know it's kinda sad, but I like getting things OTHER than bills in the mail. Just about time to put Niall to bed..7:30 got here much faster than I had anticipated. Going to have to get my camera going and take pics of the new members of our family : Angus and Isis..cute lil kitties that they are, they joined Leonardo the fish, our family is complete, ha ha.
I find I'm still kind of bummed about my tubal. A friend of mine called me tonight to tell me she's pregnant and I found that I was jealous...the tubal was done more for my family (sorry to be honest guys) than for me. I got sick of hearing how I shouldn't have any more children, I KNOW it's not advisable for me to be having a bunch of babies and raising them alone, I also know that I have 3 beautiful, healthy children, that still doesn't stop me from mourning all the ones that will now never be. I know I would have liked to have one more, right after I had Rhiannon I didn't want ANY more, 36 hours of labour will do that for you, but now, after watching her growing and meeting milestones it makes my heart yearn for another life to coax along. Oh well, I better not dwell on what cannot be changed and enjoy the present and the children who are here and tangible. Yet, I cannot help but feel a minor bit of melancholy for that shadow child. Until next post, Be Thou Blessed.
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